I am sort of missing in action at the moment as I am just having so many issues going on in my RL I can’t spare the time or the motivation to blog. Although I have a fair few posts I could write about all the things happening at the moment, I just can’t find the energy.
Life sometimes beats you down so much that you can barely find the will to stand, we have all experienced it at some point. We all deal with (or not as the case may be) it differently and have very different coping starts. However I am way beyond the ability to cope with everything at the moment.
I still love blogging, and I love my WoW, I love my readers and my commenters and everything the blogosphere has brought into my life this year, but unfortunately it does not solve the real life issues that crop up and so my focus is now on other aspects of my life. What is pathetically horrible is that all it boils down to is my inability to find a job. I am not unemployed at the moment, but I am not in a job that suits – aside from me travelling for just over 2.5 hours to get to work each way, I am working with my parents which brings a whole swag of issues, plus the huge pay cut I took doing it to help out when my mum had her nervous breakdown thinking – stupidly as it turns out – that I could get another job with a snap of the fingers, I spend most days bored out of my mind because I complete things 3 times faster than my mum does.
Anyone who has been job hunting or constantly rejected knows how horrible it can feel, and after 18 months of not even having one interview and redesigning my resume over 5 times, I am in a very bad mental place where I cannot hope to even be a good blogger – not that I was ever good per se. I do not want my feelings to spill over into my wow life and so I will still be reading your posts and looking up blogs, but you will not likely see me comment much because I just don’t have the capacity right now. Job hunting in NSW as well as VIC is going to take its toll on me and I cannot think of anything worse than making harsh or snippy comments and risking friendships because I am grumpy.
I am not sure when I will be back blogging again, it may never happen, but for those who want to add me and chat in game Dragonray 1445 is my battle tag. I am still in game fairly often so more than happy to have a chinwag with people.