All three things last night combined to make me one grouchy grouchy person.
Firstly, YAY – we killed Heroic Morchok!! We still need a couple of raiders as I had to pug 2 last night because one of our guildies got stuck at work and was not online until 30 minutes after raid start, and we are still missing another actual DPS.
I was quite proud we killed a heroic boss even though it was piss easy and in truth almost as easy as normal mode. Probably buff – but was it always that easy?
We did up to Hagara in normal, however we did have a couple of cracks at Zon and Yorsahj on Heroic to see the fight and have a gander. I learn by doing, so watching videos and reading strats doesn’t give me a good idea of what happens. Now, after seeing them – albeit temporarily – I can understand the strats when reading them and I can explain it better.
Last night, I was annoyed, so annoyed. In my typical fashion I just shut up and don’t stand up for myself. I don’t like confrontation – I don’t like telling people to shut up, and I don’t know how to do that. I keep expecting people to show some respect in this game and I am always pissed when it doesn’t happen.
Now, I am not saying that everyone who plays this game are sexist wankers, but I am certain there are more than we realise. Or I have a voice that says “ignore me and everything I say because I am your raid leader”.
You can take the following as a rant of epic proportions and choose to never read this blog again, but as usual, there will be strong violence, harsh language and massive generalizations.
Last night, we had a couple of pugs as I mentioned and they knew I was a person with bewbs ( . ) ( . ) , and as far as I could tell there was no issue until they realised I was Raid leader. I started getting whispers about them leading if I needed and because they were used to doing that role they were quite happy to jump in. I said something along the lines of ok, but we should be fine, I ask for help or advice when needed. I am not the type of raid leader who isn’t willing to listen to other ideas – providing they mesh with mine
Anyway before we pulled Morchock, I asked the tanks to move the boss to the crystals when they popped. I had done enough research to know that it is a nice simple strat that has success. It also makes it easier for people to follow. Do you think that happened? After the first pull went weird…there was massive outpouring on vents about people not moving and stacking etc. I repeated myself – that had the tank been moving the mob to the crystals as I had asked it wouldn’t have been an issue. That caused more bullshit about why are we doing it that way we should do x,y,z. Someone in the guild backed my strat up and off we went again – voila once people listened to me. I also had to tell people 3 times – i kid you not – 3 times, which groups were going on which boss. Because group 1 on Morchok and group 2 on Korchom is so fucking hard to obey? So that set me up for already being annoyed because people wouldn’t listen to a simple strat and they wouldn’t listen to me when I spoke.
Once morchok was down, we grabbed a piccy, and then as we were heading down to Zonozz I was explaining to the raid that I wanted to just give him a couple of cracks on heroic to see the fight and have a play – we have to try them before we can kill them. Anyway we get to Zonozz and I start explaining how we are going to do Zonozz and what happens in the black phase. Someone pipes up about those things are only in heroic modes, followed by derogatory cynical laughter. I said with clenched teeth, I remind everyone that on the way here I said we would be trying it on heroic. Pug then says we don’t have the DPS and basically that we cant do it – not even your top DPS is doing enough, oh also its really healing intensive and they have to be really on the ball. Now, we may not have the DPS – but we did morchok on heroic…so really thats not really showing our skills since most of us had never done it anyway – I know I was all over the place because I didn’t know the fight – in fact i burnt 2 cooldowns incorrectly because I was just freaking out a little. He was blathering on about people in his guild doing 40k dps and we weren’t doing 30k…but refer previous sentence.
Anyway, we had one attempt on Zonozz, which we got to first black blood phase and then basically we wiped. So instead of coming back and doing that again – we ended up changing strats because his was better because they cleared it all the time. And? We have been raiding together as a guild for what will be our fourth week next week. We are still gearing up some people a little (although they are not bad by any stretch) and we are just starting out in heroics – of course we are not going to walk in and one shot fucking heroic bosses. But anyway, I lost control of the raid at that point because I had nothing left to say.
We then did one more attempt, wiped horribly then did it on normal and even then – there was arguments about the way we were doing that. Also no matter how many times I told people to stack together or get out – people didn’t listen, which made the fight harder – even on normal.
Yorsahj was a cock up – I even downloaded the mod which tells you which bloods to kill – apparently it is pretty accurate for most guilds starting out. However I got shot down on that as well because it is wrong apparently. However some of the choices were odd and I think caused us more issues. Anyway, we tried it twice and then did it normal.
I basically had nothing to say because everything I said was disagreed with and I don’t have the skills to just tell them to shut it and listen to me. Skills may not be the right word – I don’t have the assertiveness. As I mentioned earlier, I expect people to respect others. Saying fights will be hard if the healers aren’t “top” and DPS isn’t high enough and blah blah blah just annoys me – guilds don’t kill heroic bosses without pushing themselves to be better and get more out of their toons.
So at the end of the raid I was annoyed at myself for not being assertive enough to stand up to it, and I was annoyed that people can be so negative and that people can have so little respect for other players.